by definition

It's been playing over and over in my head, this being called "self-indulgent" and being accused of "emotional masturbation".
Of course, being the person that I am, I looked up the meanings to these words.
Self-Indulgence is a noun meaning giving into one's desires, passions, whims etc, without restraint.
I looked up Emotional Masturbation but there is no real definition. So I looked them up separately.
Emotional is an adjective pertaining to or involving emotion, which, of course, is any strong agitation of the feelings actuated by experiencing love, hate, fear, etc., and usually accompanied by certain physiological changes, as increased heartbeat or respiration, and often overt manifestation, as crying or shaking.
Masturbation, a noun, meaning the stimulation or manipulation of one's own genitals, esp. to orgasm; sexual self-gratification.
So, by definition "Emotional Masturbation" is the stimulating of one's actuated feelings resulting in self-gratification...?
NONE of this, as I can see is bad.
As a human, and a female of the species, I am an emotional being. Add to that an artist and you will find that it isn't easy to put the 2 into different boxes. On better days, I am able to pick some stuff up and leave other things behind when my heart isn't involved...but when my heart becomes attached to something, or someone, and it is tossed aside or pushed away for some other thing that doesn't make sense in this life or the next, then all bets are off.